Desiring God

The LORD upholds all who are falling
and raises up all who are bowed down.
The eyes of all look to you,
and you give them their food in due season.
You open your hand;
you satisfy the desire of every living thing.
Psalm 145:14-16

Inspired by a tweet by Tedashii, I opened up this morning to Psalm 145. He had noticed verse 17, but this passage is what caught my eye especially after what we studied in Philippians in homegroup yesterday. The question was raised: why are we so easily satisfied? Or perhaps more accurately, why do we so quickly seek our satisfaction in things of this world, that we already know from our and others' experience will not satisfy?

To make it personal, why do I try to take refuge in things like money, working and performing when I know those will all betray me sooner or later?

Humans are proud and foolish; we were created to worship and serve, yet we try anything we can to exalt ourselves, to make ourselves great. As I wrote about earlier, I fooled myself into thinking that because things were going well, they were that way because I deserved it and they would be that way forever. Thankfully, God was gracious enough to not let me continue in that but shook me out and brought me back to Him. No matter what I do, how far I have tried to roam and what nonsense I've engaged in looking for peace, or joy, or anything good, the only satisfaction has been in God.

Jesus has never become boring, because each day He's revealed new truth to and about me. Jesus has never frustrated me except in such a way that it shows me where I'm sinning--and a way out, a way back to life. To be sure my relationship with Christ has been difficult, but not because of Him; it's been because learning to find real satisfaction in him, to stop grasping for the things I left behind when He found me originally, is damned hard. But He's enabled me to make each step and forgiven each fall by His great mercy, and I look forward to a day when my desire for Him is as great as those men whom I admire and read: Matt Chandler, John Piper, C.S. Lewis, Francis Schaeffer, the apostle Paul. I feel like the work required to get there is like giving me a table spoon and telling me to dig to China, yet I know that's a lie. Each day I pray to desire God, and I encourage you, the reader, to seek that as well.

Prayer requests for today: diligence at work, and that God would give opportunities for the gospel to be lived and spoken of, and that from that the Spirit would come onto that place and start to heal lives.